Jeremiah 29:11

I think this has to be my absolute favorite verse in the whole entire Bible -- it applies to life, whether it's a good day or a bad.

This is unfortunately one of the bad.  I got a rejection letter last night from the MBA program.  While I wasn't surprised -- as I didn't have a superb test score or the required professional work experience -- I was a bit deflated.  At first I was numb to it, then it set in and I got pretty upset, then angry.  Today I'm finally accepting it.  I'm just a great little 'steps of loss' experiment!  They offered me the option to take the GMAT again and reevaluate my application as long as the scores transferred by June 1, but that would mean I'd have to take it in the next 2 weeks...and I feel it would ultimately be a waste of hundreds of dollars again.  I chose to defer and keep my stuff on file so I can take the test again within a year and still apply without having to send everything in if I choose to next fall.

In the past when I've really gotten down about something I generally get really angry at God and pull the whole "why me" business...but with this I had a strange sense of peace even through the upset.  Although I was disappointed, I truly feel like I'm being led towards where I need to be...and that wasn't commuting downtown 4 days a week to the 5th ward to go to business school.

The regular schedule with actual weekends and vacations was extremely enticing but there's something else God knows I'd miss out on if I got into that program.  I'm where I need to be and that's what I need to focus on.  Maybe it's a new boy, maybe it's a new city, or a dream job opportunity (food editor?, some sort of behind the scenes person for Dancing with the Stars?, personal-meteorologist for the PGA tour?) ...one can dream :)  the exciting thing is, I don't know.  But I have a whole life ahead of me to work hard and figure it out.

I do know that I'm not totally giving up on going into business...there's obviously a reason the average age for an MBA is like 27 years old...there's a lot to learn in this crazy world.  I'm moving on to plan B -- continue the job search and have faith.  All my life I've had a plan, a next step already thought out, but now -- it's a big question mark, and that is the time in my life where I have the opportunity to grow and strengthen my faith like I've never had the opportunity to do before.

There's something great out there...I just have to find it, or rather, it has to find me.  In the meantime, I need some prayers and patience in knowing that He's smiling knowing it's already figured out.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."